The Blog Paradox

Why is it that when I'm not infront of my computer, doing something else or just staring at a blank wall, I have a lot of things that I want to share (mind the word, its share and not post) in my half-nonsense blog? There have been countless times that I just stare blankly at the notepad here in blogger.com. As in no idea of what to post, no topic, uninspired... nothing! I'm like hitting the back space key twice as much as the alphabet keys. My mind is just go blank. I often ended up clicking the Sign Out link. That explains why I rarely post anything.

I know I'm a thinker coz I tend to think about a lot of things during the entire day, especially if I can't sleep at night or just aint that sleepy. That's when I'm all alone, in bed, my head resting on my hand, laying squarely on my back and staring at the ceiling. I like to reminisce.... I think about the happy moments, as well as the sad moments in my life. Wonder about my friends who I lost touch with and hope they're doing ok. I think about life in general. Like have I been good or bad lately or what do I really want to do in life? Those sort of stuffs..... which sometimes led me to believe that: (*Ok, repeat after me*) Life is cruel and I am bitter. (sorry! crankiness is starting to act up again) But I really do feel that way sometimes, don't ask me why coz I know you do too.

Good thing tomorrow's gonna be a brand new day and we can hope for the best.